We have some lovely finches who come yearly to our front porch ferns to make their nest, lay eggs, and care for their young. They are a busy team that Mr. and Mrs Finch. They take great care in making a comfortable nest, guard it obsessively (you should hear how upset they start getting when I take my coffee out there!), and as their baby birds hatch, they are fully focused on caring for the young ones with food, care and more protection. Eventually those young ones grow up, leave the nest, and we don't see the Mama and Daddy anymore. They have done their job with attention, care, and singular focus, and now they too leave the nest for other birdie adventures.
"Like a bird that wanders from her nest, so is a man who strays from his home."~Proverbs 27:8
I have been in a process of a slowly deepening realization that I have strayed too far from my nest. I began making small decisions a few years ago to start ministering to others and connecting with others outside of my home and the result is that I spend a lot of my mental energy while I am at home thinking about ministry opportunities outside my home. I am often here in body but absent in spirit.
My mind plans Bible Studies for women. Or I plan monthly sewing times for crafting women to get together. I constantly think about our Home Group and what the needs are there and how we can minister and help others grow. I think of ways I can start ministering in our church's youth group consistently and keep the babies in the nursery every Sunday morning. I find that the very energy that I need to be using to minister to my husband and children is slowly being dripped away towards those outside my home so that there isn't much left for them.
Mama Bird has one focus when those young birdies are in her nest: their survival, nurture, and growth. She doesn't busy herself trying to train other mama birds on how to nest...she must be doing it herself!
One day these sweet ones will begin flying (teen years!) and eventually fly away for good. I will have plenty of time to focus on the ministries outside of my home...to teach and train women to love their husbands and children. For right now, I need to be actively pursuing my ministry at home: nurturing and loving and training and discipling those that are the most vulnerable and the most needy... the young ones entrusted to my stewardship.
Being at home and focusing on my family IS enough. It is. I refuse to live under the unseen pressure from within or without that says I need to focus ministry energy to those outside my home. This will be a battle for me and I must stay in tune with the Holy Spirit's leadings and promptings....where He says to go, I will go. And where He says to stay, I will stay.
And right now He says, "Mama Aimee, stay. Stay present at home."