Monday, May 23, 2011

Sensitivity to the Seasons


Don't you find it important to be sensitive to the seasons? Life seasons, that is. Sometimes we are strolling along in life and everything just seems to work and then all of a sudden, those choices just don't fit anymore.

It's easy to keep trying to make something work and figuring out how to make it work and spend hours obsessing over why it isn't working when what we really need is acceptance. Acceptance that the old way of scheduling or doing or cleaning or activities or schooling just isn't where we need to be now.

We must be sensitive to the Holy Spirit and His gentle promptings towards change. He may have called us to a certain priority for a season, but is now asking us to relinquish that and to trust Him. His moving us on in new or different areas keeps us dependent on Him and not our ideals, not our lifestyle choices, not on our ways.

We all tend to resist change and like the predictable. We also find it hard to grasp and understand when God calls one way and then another...we tend to think that once He leads us in a direction that it is for life. Our daily walk must be by faith in a Guiding Person, not in a "call". We worry if we change courses about what others will think...do they think I am being unfaithful? Wavering? Disobedient? Hypocritical?

We must never allow fear of people or of failure or of whatever to keep us from the nudgings of the Spirit. In Him we have tremendous freedom and find our total love and acceptance in Him.

I am in a season of a 6th pregnancy...I have been trying to run my life as if I am not pregnant or running a home with many children. I put a lot of mental expectations on myself of what I should be doing...for others, for the Lord, for my community. I feel guilty a lot, I have been irritable and sad, and I resist accepting my current season.

I sense the Lord asking me to pull back. To guard my home, to nest, to be quiet. To give up hospitality for this season, to pare down my commitments, to make my schedule bare-bones. To focus on the needs of myself, this growing baby, my husband and my children. To stay away from negativity, draining situations, and life-stealers. To make Sabbath a priority.

These choices are not easy, but I am choosing to trust Jesus and His heart towards me which is one of gentleness, faithfulness, grace, and peace. I choose to follow Him and not my plan, my goals, my ideals. I choose sensitivity to my season and most of all, to the Holy Spirit who guides and instructs and counsels in the way I should go.

May you too find peace in your current season and in your following of Him.

11 comments:

Joy said...

Aimee,

This part- "I am in a season of a 6th pregnancy...I have been trying to run my life as if I am not pregnant or running a home with many children. I put a lot of mental expectations on myself of what I should be doing...for others, for the Lord, for my community. I feel guilty a lot, I have been irritable and sad, and I resist accepting my current season."

I am so proud of you for realizing this NOW. I have been stuck in that season for over a year now. I began to feel it while pregnant with Elliana- and should have, if nothing else, attended to it when I became sick at 36 weeks, and heaven help me, should have really admitted to it after she was born...and here I am three months later, and I am just finally, NOW, accepting this statement.

I remember how confused and foggy I felt when I met ya'll for lunch- just couldn't see my way out. It had a lot to do with this statement and not accepting...

Cheering you on, sweet friend! Much love to you.

Tracy said...

Aimee, Well spoken! Would you pray for me and my family today? My son is in jail, having once again chosen drugs over God and family. We are exhausted from the drama and fragile beyond belief. Our daughter will be graduating university in three weeks magna cum laude and we need to be present in heart and mind to celebrate with her.
I will pray for a blessed day for you and yours.

Tracy said...

Aimee, Well spoken! Would you pray for me and my family today? My son is in jail, having once again chosen drugs over God and family. We are exhausted from the drama and fragile beyond belief. Our daughter will be graduating university in three weeks magna cum laude and we need to be present in heart and mind to celebrate with her.
I will pray for a blessed day for you and yours.

Rachel Hauser said...

Yes! It is such a tricky business to be open to God's change of seasons in life plans. I tend to look back and think "I used to spend so much time on X" and wonder if I should be spending that time still. It takes grace extending towards myself to say "I am doing this new thing now and it's OK", trusting God to make it OK. Because I can never make it OK. I can't see ahead, plan ahead or do ahead enough!

Ashley said...

Wise words and just I what I needed to hear today. Thank you! :)

Linda said...

You have chosen well Aimee. I couldn't help but think of the way Jesus lived His life here on earth. For thirty years he quietly lived the life of a humble carpenter. It doesn't say anything in scripture about Him doing anything else. He was simply living in that season, preparing for the one that was to come
I pray you will find peace and rest and joy in this season of your life.

Joy @ SAH Missionary said...

Such wisdom. :) I think as women it is so easy to place expectations on ourselves that the Lord would never place on us, and it is a wise woman who steps back and listens to what HE is actually saying to us...which a lot of times is a message to pull back, rest, or be quiet. I am in that place too, right now. Even though I am not preggo, the Lord has been telling me to slow, to rest, and to enjoy. I will tell you that is a really difficult thing to do when you are on the mission field and you see SO much need right around you. But I have come to realize that it is just a season, and that perhaps He is preparing me for something in the future. Trust. That what it comes down to, and I am so glad that you are finding that place for yourself right now!!
Thanks for this post!
Blessings,
Joy

Jennifer said...

Wise Words. Embrace the change. Seasons will change again. And, little ones will grow up and move on.
Grace to you during this precious time!

STEPHANIE. said...

THank you Aimee...I always enjoy your posts. :)

Jamie said...

Aimee,

Thank you for sharing this nugget of wisdom. I really enjoy your blog ;0)

~Jamie

Lynn B said...

Can I just say how much your post spoke to me? Thanks for the lovely perspective! Your blog is one of my very favorites.