Don't you find it important to be sensitive to the seasons? Life seasons, that is. Sometimes we are strolling along in life and everything just seems to work and then all of a sudden, those choices just don't fit anymore.
It's easy to keep trying to make something work and figuring out how to make it work and spend hours obsessing over why it isn't working when what we really need is acceptance. Acceptance that the old way of scheduling or doing or cleaning or activities or schooling just isn't where we need to be now.
We must be sensitive to the Holy Spirit and His gentle promptings towards change. He may have called us to a certain priority for a season, but is now asking us to relinquish that and to trust Him. His moving us on in new or different areas keeps us dependent on Him and not our ideals, not our lifestyle choices, not on our ways.
We all tend to resist change and like the predictable. We also find it hard to grasp and understand when God calls one way and then another...we tend to think that once He leads us in a direction that it is for life. Our daily walk must be by faith in a Guiding Person, not in a "call". We worry if we change courses about what others will think...do they think I am being unfaithful? Wavering? Disobedient? Hypocritical?
We must never allow fear of people or of failure or of whatever to keep us from the nudgings of the Spirit. In Him we have tremendous freedom and find our total love and acceptance in Him.
I am in a season of a 6th pregnancy...I have been trying to run my life as if I am not pregnant or running a home with many children. I put a lot of mental expectations on myself of what I should be doing...for others, for the Lord, for my community. I feel guilty a lot, I have been irritable and sad, and I resist accepting my current season.
I sense the Lord asking me to pull back. To guard my home, to nest, to be quiet. To give up hospitality for this season, to pare down my commitments, to make my schedule bare-bones. To focus on the needs of myself, this growing baby, my husband and my children. To stay away from negativity, draining situations, and life-stealers. To make Sabbath a priority.
These choices are not easy, but I am choosing to trust Jesus and His heart towards me which is one of gentleness, faithfulness, grace, and peace. I choose to follow Him and not my plan, my goals, my ideals. I choose sensitivity to my season and most of all, to the Holy Spirit who guides and instructs and counsels in the way I should go.
May you too find peace in your current season and in your following of Him.