I have spent some time this morning evaluating 2010.
Did I live true to my values and goals?
Did I follow Jesus?
As I talked to my husband about the year, he encouraged me to get out my journal and write these things down...how did I provide hospitality this year? How did I grow as a homemaker? Did I find time for my hobbies? What trips did we take? Did I bear fruit? Did I obey the promptings of the Spirit?
Taking a soul-inventory is so good and refreshing. I am amazed at the faithfulness of God in my life and the grace that shows up day by day, moment by moment. Staying focused is how I would describe 2010 for me. I stayed very true to my vision for being a wife, mother, and child of God...not perfect, bumps along the way, but overall I think I have finished the year well.
This is my Year of Presence. My heart yearns to practice the Presence of Jesus daily...to turn quickly to Him in stress, in soul-tumult, in praise for the good, in thankfulness, in joy...in all things. I want my default-setting to be dependence/trust in Jesus...not anger or fear or dismay.
Jesus is to be my First Thought not my afterthought.
And I want to give Presence to others. My time to my husband...loving and serving him well. My undistracted attention to my children. An open, available heart to my friends...and really being there for them and with them. I want to stop my hoarding mindset when it comes to availability...and to trust Him that as I give He will keep filling and overflowing His Presence in and through me.
This will most certainly touch on the deeper, selfish places of my heart.
But what is life except He and His People?
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