I am currently evaluating how distracted I am. My heart and mind have not been with my children lately. And I find myself seeking to get away from them during the day at any chance I get. I don't want to focus on them or move towards them. I have wanted them to stay busy and on their own. This really grieves me. I don't want to view them as a drain or source of frustration and fatigue!
Not sure of all the reasons why I am at this mothering-place. Don't even think that I necessarily need to know why (navel-gazing is an awful distraction too!). I just need to know that by golly I am distracted and need to change.
These posts have all come to me while I have already been thinking these things. Confirmation, I'd say.
Time for Play
Pay Attention
Why The Kids Really Need A Red Hen Mama
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Oh...me, too! I have found myself becoming really resentful of my son sometimes these days...that's not who I want to be. I don't know if it is an honest response to not taking enough time to take care of my own spirit, mind, & body...or if it's an attack by the enemy. Either way...not fun. Thanks for the resources.
Aimee, have you had a chance to have some time away recently? I find that when I'm feeling like that, it usually means that I need a little space. For me, it is an issue of introversion. Because I'm around little people all the time, after awhile the need to be alone builds up until I find myself trying to get away even when I'm with them! My husband and I "trade time" when we're feeling like that. Last Saturday I went away for four hours while Gabe was with the kids. I came back SO refreshed and I feel like I'm ready to connect again.
Something to consider, anyway! I hope things improve. :)
Aimee, this is totally unrelated to your post. My husband is looking for a new job. When choosing the states where we would be willing to move, S.C. was deleted because I thought the homeschooling laws were tough. I know you are relaxed homeschoolers. If you have time, would you mind talking to me about your knowledge and experience of this? Thanks!
Laura, here is a link to SC Homeschooling laws:
http://www.schomeeducatorsassociation.org/lawetc.php
Hope that helps!
Aimee-
I keep having this nagging inside me that is pushing me to have an Internet fast bc I know that it is commanding way too much of my time...but I keep pushing the thought away bc I really DONT WANT TO STEP AWAY. That's the bottom line. And then I read your other links and am feeling the tug even stronger. I am going to have to think and pray on this more.
And I agree about the navel gazing. :)
I hope you will share more thoughts on this as you figure out what steps you need to take.
Aimee - I don't know the answer but I prayed for you during lunch for wisdom. Hang in there!
I don't have kids, but I just gotta say, kudos to you for being brutally honest. It takes guts to write a post like this, and I admire you for admitting you're human. Sending positive thoughts your way...
Are you in my head? Your past 6 or 7 posts (except for the chickens as we're still debating goats) have been completely in line and insync with exactly where I am lately. I just haven't felt like myself. I have been feeling the need to bust out of my mama shell. I've gone away on a ladies weekend. I've turned to Christians and non-christians, mamas and mamawannabes, myself and God; about half say to follow my creative juices and let loose and the other half say hold on, this is just a phase and it seems as though God has been giving me mixed messages (although, I'm sure it's more about me and my interpretation of all that is going on around me). I am praying for you, sister and all you have going on these days. May God grant us wisdom and peace!
Definitely struggling with it too...not so much in the Internet sense since my online time is a pittance of what it once was- but definitely in the mama sense. feel pulled 40 different directions and not giving proper attention to any one thing, whether that be discipline or home keeping or what have you. mama chicken with head cut off is more like it...
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