Monday, January 5, 2009
When All Else Fails....Worship!
There have been dark times in the past in my relationship with the Lord. Times of searching and confusion. Too many Christian living books with conflicting messages. Too many respected leaders who love the Lord yet disagree with each other. Too many interpretations and opinions. I felt lost and disillusioned and wondering what Truth is. I stopped searching for Truth as theology and found Truth as the person of Jesus...His life, His words, His character. But I digress...
In those heavy times I felt tossed about all day...tossed about in my thinking and in my emotions. I felt adrift and scared and alone. I prayed for clarity and deliverance and eyes to see Him for who He really is. I cried out for grace and mercy and to get back to a simple faith. When did it all become so hard? When did I lose my relationship with a person and replace it with lifeless religion? Why was I trying to "do Christianity" when I was called to "be" in a safe, settled relationship with Jesus?
The Lord Jesus met me there in that desolate place. And it wasn't in books or in people or even in the Word (because at this point, even the Word was a confusing place for me). He met me in worship. I would turn on Sara Groves and weep and say "yes Lord, you are real and you are my God". She put words to my heart and lifted my eyes to Jesus over and over again. I would turn on Valley of Vision and the Truth of who I am in Christ and His Grace would shine brightly on my dark heart and I would be encouraged that all is well with my soul. Because He made it well on the Cross. And I believe it.
There are many other artists (including country music singers...God uses anything to speak...Martina McBride and Carrie Underwood at times!) whose music seemed to reach into the depths of my weary heart and lifted my eyes to Christ. The Lord used music as a safe means to whisper to me, to love on me, to speak truth to me, to woo me, and I responded. I worshipped at His feet and looked at Him and all my spiritual strivings would slip away.
I found a new CD today and put in an order. Come Weary Saints looks to be another worship CD that will speak loudly of God's character and put life into perspective. I was able to listen to samples of a few of the songs and my eyes puddled immediately. Check out Sovereign Grace's other wonderful music offerings while you are there...they are powerful and I appreciate the low prices and free shipping to boot :) And do take time to go listen to some Andrew Peterson...your soul will be soothed and comforted.
Have you found music to be an intimate part of your walk with the Lord? Which artists have lifted your eyes to worship?
Share the worship wealth!
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