Friday, January 30, 2009

A Few Thoughts...


Before I get back to my regular blogging of how I seek to live simply, live in my freedom in Christ, and give out resources that I personally find helpful, I feel like I need to give a bit of closure or update or whatever to all of you who have left such kind words, prayed for us, and thought about us during the past two weeks since "the Miracle on the Hudson".

Mike arrived home on the Friday night after the crash after a long car ride in a big SUV :). It was a very emotional reunion and Saturday was a crazy rollercoaster of emotions. On Sunday after going to church, we decided to head to Florida for a week as a family...to rest, to get away from staring eyes and questions, to have fun, and to process. We had a wonderful week and enjoyed some fun times at Disney...it was so much more needed than we realized. We came home last Sunday and have been seeking to re-group our schedules and get life moving as smoothly as possible again.

I don't have any huge revelations to share with you about "what we have learned" or anything. All of the shock and the surreal nature of the accident is still taking time to wear off. It's going to take some time to think through all of this, and for now we are seeking to just focus on today and following Jesus in this day. I have definitely struggled with a sense of fear and panic at the thought of how close I came to being a widow, having four young children, and a fifth one on the way.

We are so grateful for God's grace in sparing Mike's life. I know that God could have just as easily taken Mike home to be with Him. I am thrilled to have every day that I have with him right now. All of a sudden all of the little things that as a wife I can nag about have disappeared. Who cares if Mike is addicted to 1/2 sweet 1/2 unsweetened tea? Who cares that he likes to buy packaged chocolate donuts from gas stations? Who cares if he leaves piles of receipts next to his bed or on the kitchen counters?? I have been learning not to sweat the small stuff. Let him be who he is and stop trying to micro-manage things that really don't matter. Enjoy who he is and value him as a person over my controlling ideals. That's a big lesson to learn.

The other thing that I have been seeing is how I really need to have God's Word ready in my memory for when the hard times hit....especially when it comes so unexpectedly. The emotions and the fears are very real and the only thing that has kept me grounded is to meditate on Scripture that has been stored in my mind and heart for years. The Holy Spirit can quickly bring verses to mind, and I am completely comforted and given perspective. When in a panic, I tend to open the Word and scour and feel so pressured to find hope and peace...but having His Word stored in my heart allows the Lord to bring exactly what I need to hear and when I need to hear it. This has relieved much "spiritual frantic-ness" lately. So my next post will be on the sweetness and comfort of meditation. I can't tell you how many times in the last two weeks I have repeated

"cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you"
I Peter 5:7

I am amazed at God's sovereignty in this situation...we don't know all the whys of His plan and may never know, but we do know that we can trust Him. He is mighty and powerful and does as He pleases.

And we are so grateful that He was pleased to give Mike to us for another day.

21 comments:

Katrina said...

So, so thankful for God's grace in your life.

This has really stuck me deep down.

"Don't sweat the small stuff" is huge, isn't it... way bigger than we realize until something like this makes us stop and ponder.

What you say about the importance of scripture being in our hearts and memories is so true and I have been thankful for it often.

Wonderful family picture, Aimee... so happy you are all together. :o)

((hugs))
Katrina

Beth said...

Thank you, Aimee, for sharing with us so eloquently and generously. Thank God that Mike (and everyone else on that plane) is safe today. And what a good reminder to all of us to diligently study the Word of God, and for wives to take our husbands "for better or worse, but not for granted."

kelli said...

Welcome back, dear one! So good to hear your voice again!

Hilty Sprouts! said...

Welcome back Aimee! I'm so thankful that all is well with your family.
I too must learn to let go of control and not "sweat the small stuff" and I have felt increasingly convicted lately about the lack of God's word hidden in my heart. Have you been over to Walk Slowly, Live Wildly? She has started "The James Challenge" in which she is inviting others to memorize scripture with her. I'm going to give it a try! Here's the link:
http://walkslowlylivewildly.com/category/the-james-challenge/


Jennifer

Marianna said...

I've thought of you often this week. I continue to pray for you and your family as you continue to process all that has happened.

I didn't make the connection while reading the paper this morning that that picture was of your family. Apparently your IL's live in the same metro area as us. I was crying and thinking of your family the whole time as I read it, though:)

gina said...

such sweet thoughts. thanks for the reminders

shepherdsgrace said...

we are thank-full with you...

sarah

P.S.He loves you.. said...

I can only imagine..what it must feel like to be in your shoes.

Those "new sets of eyes" can be the BIGGEST blessings in life!

debbie bailey said...

I'm so glad God was gracious and gave you back your husband. How scary that must have been! Hope you get back in your regular life soon.

tonia said...

aimee,

your words really confirm for me something that Lord has been speaking. this week i begin memorizing the book of Phillipians. i expect it to take a year, but i am so looking forward to the extended time of meditation on one book of the Bible.

i am giving thanks alongside you for God's grace in your life. thank you for sharing your small profundities with us...it's those little things that make all the difference.

laurel said...

I was glad to hear how y'all are doing in the aftermath of the crash. I am sure life feels very different. You are so right about memorizing scripture. I having been thinking about that a lot since Sara posted the James Challenge the other day.

DramaMama said...

Thanks for sharing your story! It's always inspiring when others talk about their personal bumps in the road and how they are handling them. Praise God that you were able to have time to slow down and be together! I'm also writing to let you know that I have tagged you in a 7 random things meme. Maybe now's a great time for you to take a break from the seriousness and participate in a little fun =) Check out my random thoughts on my blog...thank you again for sharing your story!

STEPHANIE said...

I am so glad that everything turned out ok...and I must have missed something here...You have a little one on the way?!!?!!? COngrats!!!!

Lelia said...

Oh Dear Friend. . .what a blessing to stop by here while I'm eating my little lunch and see a new post from you. . .a healing post, an encouraging post, and post that makes tears well up in my eyes simply because I too have thought long and hard about how close you came to losing Mike and how I would have felt if I'd come that close to losing Tim. I am learning from your example to let Tim be Tim, with all his little idiosyncrasies and not bug him to death about the little things. I'm so thankful I have him, as I know you are more thankful than ever you have Mike. Can't wait to see all of you soon---

Love, Lelia

The Mangerchine's said...

I haven't read your blog in a while Aimee and returned to find this... wow! I'm so glad that through this you've pressed into the Lord and that He's filled you with gratitude in your daily life! This is so touching to read, thank you for sharing your experience that you may be an inspiration to your readers!

Shannon

Linda said...

I am here from Tonia's blog Aimee. What an amazing story you have to hold in your hearts. I am so thankful, with you, that your husband is safe and home with all of you.
What you say about storing scripture in our hearts is so true. I, too, have found myself vainly searching for a verse I know is "somewhere" - longing to find just the right words.
I've been doing the scripture memorization challenge with Beth Moore. One little verse at a time (which seems as much as this grandmother's brain can handle), but each one a treasure.
It is so nice to meet you.

Susan L said...

Love the photo!

Love your spirit in this post, and those little lessons are really big, wise ones, Aimee!

God bless,
Susan

Robin in New Jersey said...

Hi! I just popped over here from aholyexperience(she mentioned you in her post.) What a wonderful blessing you and your family have received. Thank you for the reminder not to sweat the small stuff. In the grand scheme of things, the small stuff just does not matter.

flo said...

thank you:)

Bonita said...

So thankful that your husband is with you and that all of you are taking some time to regroup and enjoy one another.

Kathi said...

Hi Aimee!

I read this post soon after you posted it and am coming back to it now with a question. I do some speaking at a national Christian conference - my topic is Bible memorization. One of the points I make is that we need to memorize the word in preparation for hard times to come -- especially times when we can't/don't open the Bible.

I'd like to ask you if I could use a portion of your blog post as an anecdote in my talk (among others I use as examples). I would never do this without your permission, of course. Could we discuss this (via email/phone)? I could describe my talk and the conference so you'd know the context.

If you're willing, let me know: kathi.westlund@gmail.com.

In any case, thank you for posting your story -- it IS inspirational!