June has been a doozy. It's usually my favorite month of the year. It speaks to me of long, warm days, getting lost in hours of fiction, decluttering my home, hours at the pool, creative projects and grilled meals with fruit salads. All extracurricular activities recede and margin-filled days reign. The good life. This month has held those things but also some health issues for me, deep and hard conversations with friends, disillusionment with the Body of Christ on all sides, and the pain that our country is in over racial and sexual identity issues. It all feels like too much to ponder and hold. In light of all of this, here are some of the things I have been learning:
1. Unity doesn't mean uniformity or theological agreement. The foundation of unity is our identity in Christ. Unity isn't holding hands and smiling and warm hugs and nodding yes...sometimes it is fought for with tears and questions and listening and humility and disagreement while sitting at picnic tables and Panera and my dining room table. Unity means vulnerability. Unity means that we keep showing up and we don't give in to the very real temptation to fight or flight when we feel threatened and scared.
3. When in doubt, go love someone. There is so much in the Bible that is hard to understand and so many faithful Christ followers deeply disagree. However I think no one would disagree that the highest commands are to love God and to love others. That much is clear. So when your theology and thinking is challenged or you are in a space of doubt and confusion, the thing you can know is that it is always His will to go love the person in your path.
4. Sewing always proves to be a great way to get out my mind. I internally process a lot of things. My mind is very very active and the ideas and thoughts that seem to go on overdrive are forced to stop when I engage an activity that makes me think. Sewing makes me slow down and focus...the measuring, the seam allowances, the understanding of patterns and construction. I spent all last Saturday making Dottie Angel's just-released Frock Pattern from Simplicity and I adore it. Planning to make many, many more. I also made four of these wonderful headbands and it was a quick, satisfying and practical project.
5. Friends ground me and pray for me and I am not alone. I have had many seasons where I have felt so deeply alone and unknown and under-supported. As stressor upon stressor arrived this month, I had many different friends listen and reach out and pray for and with me. My temptation was to feel untethered and unseen but my dear friends from so many different walks of my life encouraged me and listened and prayed. It has been a beautiful, redemptive thing to experience.